How my mind works.
So, I haven't posted in a while. Here's some stuff.
1. I'm going to seminary next year on at least a half scholarship! WOOHOO!
2. I'm leaving for PNG on Monday at 4:30 p.m. WOOHOO!
So that's about it for me.
Now, I've been thinking a bit. I have a lot of opinions on stuff... and I think I come off as judgmental sometimes. For example, I was looking at the "religion" section at Barnes and Noble. Side by side are books like the case for Christ and some new age religion bullcrap book. Now, that pisses me off. Here's why.
I realize that many people will come in spiritually hungry and look at these books. They will be pointed to this table of 25% good books and 75% spiritually dry self help books that will lead a person to hell. I get pissed off that these people will be misled by these authors who use Christianity and religion for their own personal gain. Seriously - it pisses me off.
So when I stand there I say things like, "The fact that there are these books side by side gets under my skin." And people don't realize all the stuff going on underneath, and I come off as just a blindly angry dude that wants to be right. But that's really not my heart, even though all of the above thoughts about that table don't go on consciously in my brain, my brain connects the pattern.
Similarly, in chess my brain connects complex patterns that are learned over the course of my experience playing chess. I don't always know the reasons for the moves I make, but I do know they are best. Similarly, I don't always explain my immense disapproval for the religion table at a Barnes and Noble, but my judgment is right.
It's just how my mind works - I hope I'm not as misunderstood as I feel sometimes. And I will admit that my intuition isn't always right.
TO PNG!
Bish
1. I'm going to seminary next year on at least a half scholarship! WOOHOO!
2. I'm leaving for PNG on Monday at 4:30 p.m. WOOHOO!
So that's about it for me.
Now, I've been thinking a bit. I have a lot of opinions on stuff... and I think I come off as judgmental sometimes. For example, I was looking at the "religion" section at Barnes and Noble. Side by side are books like the case for Christ and some new age religion bullcrap book. Now, that pisses me off. Here's why.
I realize that many people will come in spiritually hungry and look at these books. They will be pointed to this table of 25% good books and 75% spiritually dry self help books that will lead a person to hell. I get pissed off that these people will be misled by these authors who use Christianity and religion for their own personal gain. Seriously - it pisses me off.
So when I stand there I say things like, "The fact that there are these books side by side gets under my skin." And people don't realize all the stuff going on underneath, and I come off as just a blindly angry dude that wants to be right. But that's really not my heart, even though all of the above thoughts about that table don't go on consciously in my brain, my brain connects the pattern.
Similarly, in chess my brain connects complex patterns that are learned over the course of my experience playing chess. I don't always know the reasons for the moves I make, but I do know they are best. Similarly, I don't always explain my immense disapproval for the religion table at a Barnes and Noble, but my judgment is right.
It's just how my mind works - I hope I'm not as misunderstood as I feel sometimes. And I will admit that my intuition isn't always right.
TO PNG!
Bish
posted by Brian at 8:12 PM
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